Sincerely, your mind.

So I was sitting, or laying in my bed. Trying to sleep when my brain just couldn't stop talking. You know those thoughts that randomly spring forth, and you try to not think of them like its thoughts that you really don't want to think about. For me, it was my prgenito fat belly and my last hook up. We spent seven house together and ruined it in ten minutes of upstairs unsatisfactory. And an awkward "My dads on his way." I mean I seriously want to invent a time machine to take me back so i can maybe gather enough balls to say no. But see the thing is i always have a hard time saying no. For some reason when things are leading to another i cant help but go with my sexual instincts, but every time i regret. And i know that its fucking up my mind. And possibly when I'm older I'm going to blame all my hook ups from hell on someone i really truly love and push him away... Like the movies and sad stories. But when I'm alone with another guy...its hard to say no. Its just me and him, in which seems like a weird setting. Were getting into it and it only seems natural to continue. To go to the next step. There is just somethings that seem natural, and hooking up unfortunately seems some what natural. I mean the guy cant be gross or I cant be too drunk. But for those times when its just you and him. And things have gotten hot. I don't really understand the point of saying no. Its natural. Love isn't an aspect when it comes to sex. Chemicals take over your body and make you do things you wouldn't normally due or say. So why do people take sham to those who suffer from a black moan? When they are only doing what is natural, like drinking alphas pure h2o.