this arn't to great at the moment.

This, is me... my junior year. OK i don't know if I'm just being over dramatic or whatever. but I'm freaking! like I'm so stressed out! i can't sleep well knowing that I'm going to have a hard test in the next week or so, or have a project due that i prob haven't even started yet. freshman year... i didn't give two fucks soph year was a breeze.. now this year... i wanna take hard classes so i did... but now I'm regretting it cuz i got my report card and have 3 C!! up to this point iv made honor role. or just about. and iv done good and iv tried hard to get it and this yeah i feel like I'm trying even harder than iv ever tried...and still Nada, nothing. its like I'm working working working then BAM " you have failed " like cramming all night for a text and getting a 50... like iv never thought so much about dropping out of school till this year. i just wanna travel the world and take really good pictures.. not fucking learn where my body parts are and being taught bull shit things by MS B. ( shout outtttt ) who is a complete mess with her lil fucking sneakers and oversizes coffee cup first period.... i sooo should of stayed in Dr.c's class. I SHOULD OF STAYED IN ALL MY LEVEL TWO CLASSES. butt nooooo i had to be miss " colleges like level one class students " attitude and march down to guidance and get it changed... WHAT WAS I THINKING! i'm like crying. if all hell hasn't already broken loose i'm under the major weigh of my job. panera. which I'm getting fatter by the day ..by. fuckfuckfuck. they always want me to close. i hate closing. ok i'm done drinking, i'm done smoking, i'm done with friends and people. i'm going to pull a mary lu and just find a new love of studding and working. i don't want ANY FRIENDS. i don't want a boy friend. i don't want to have to worry about who i'm taking to junior prom i don't want to have to worry about anything. i wanna live free and naked in a desert with just me and some hot model that i can't think of and just have sex and not make babies and live off of plants and catus water. that's it!! that's all i ask for. every thing else can go fuck its self. ughhhh. i'm now going to go cry in my bed and wake up tomorrow and pretend that i'm not stressed and i'm not crumbling on the inside, only because there are people in other countries who never ever ever are going to have an education... you pooor pooor people are the only thing that keeps me from slowly dieing in this country. MOTHERFUCKER